Wednesday, June 19, 2013


Dear God,

I pray that you help Reno with this concert series this summer. I know this first one was rough for him and he's overwhelmed with it all. So I pray that you make it easier on him this week and help him deal with his workers if anything were to go bad. 

I know that I left early last week, and I should have stayed :( I pray that when I work the next week, that you help me get trough it and remember that it's reno's business.. Not mine. 
In Jesus name, 

Wednesday, June 12, 2013


Dear God,
I am really struggling lately with a number of issues. I am very hurt and very stressed and I don't want to be. Lord please heal me from my hurt I'm carrying.  Please help me get through everything! 

Lord, I pray for Reno and I. We're really struggling to get through this Rachel issue so please give us strength to get through this as couples and as individuals. I know this is very stressful for Reno so please Lord take away the stress from him. 

God, I pray for this summer, that you help everyone working the concert series and get through it without stress and just enjoy our time with each other. I also pray for reno's business. Lord please grow DPH sound and make it as Reno wants it. He treats his company as his child so please help it grow and stay strong. 

God, once again please heal me from the hurt I feel. Help me be strong in you and in my life. I pray that you help me be Christ like toward others who aren't showing the same to me.ams if there's any where I can grow in, please help me through it. This is really heavy on my heart and I pray that you take it all away and help me focus on Reno and work and just enjoyment in life. 
In your mighty name, 

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Random thought

 So do you think a year and half is a good time to talk about marriage? This has been on my mind for a while now. I know I have a hard time bringing it up to Reno, and it probably adds more pressure on him which sucks :( I mean shouldn't we be able to at least talk about it at least? And figure out what to do at a couple to get to that? I tried to talk about it with him yesterday. I don't know if it helped but its really been on my mind. I mean you can't date forever? Or at least I hope you can't. I really feel as if he's so terrified of that commitment that he's just going to date me forever. So how should I bring it up without making him feel pressured? Sigh... I hope he realizes that I'm not going anywhere like everyone else did. Info love him very much and want to spend the rest of my life with him.. I just hope one day he feels the same way. 

Friday, June 7, 2013


  Sigh... Why can't I keep my mouth shut about this whole marriage subject?? I wish I could never talk about it or bring it up, but it's really hard for me. I guess since I'm ready before Reno is that it's easy for me to talk about. But every time I remotely bring it up, I get a very mean look :( 
 Is it wrong for me to want to be married? I know I'm young but I know I'm ready. I just wished he was. But I don't understand how he couldn't be ready? I can understand financially, but it's been a year and half. You can't date forever! Plus the sexual tension is building up and being Christian, you can't have sex before marriage. And even though we've come pretty close, we still haven't yet.
 Ugh I don't know. I feel like I'm the reject girlfriend so he's taking his sweet time with everything :( is that a bad way to think? I just feel that from what he's told me about his previous relationships, that I'm the one who's not good enough to even think about marriage. :( 
 So yeah. That's my little rant for today. 

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

A year and half! Say what????

Our very first picture together!!!
So today is Reno and I's year and half anniversary!! Holy moly! This man has made me so happy since day one. He treats me right and actually loves me back! Who knew?? lol.
Honestly, I've never thought I'd meet a man who i would see myself being with for the rest of my life. Just looking at out first picture together (well first picture being official) makes me very happy, and a tad bit giddy inside!
Reno being silly :)
So what can I say about this man right here... Well for one he's AMAZING! :) He's very weird, makes me laugh regardless, very talented, loves Monty Python, and so much more!
I love the fact that even though he's not a touchy feely person like me, he has his own way of showing how much he cares. He also gives hints about the future even when he doesn't realize it! hehe ;)
He's also changed me in a way I never thought i could change. He makes me a better person, and he also brought me back to Christ.
Even when we have our rough days.. weeks... months... (yes months) we still find a way to love and grow together as a couple and as individuals.  I just know in my heart that this is the man I am going to spend the rest of my life with even if it hasn't crossed his mind yet. I love him so much and care for him just as much and I wouldn't trade him for anything.
Here's some pictures for you to enjoy..
Us being silly!

Oh how I love my roman soldier

Our first new years together :)

Antioch High fundraiser

Nerds by heart!

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Just one of those days.

 Have you ever had one of those days where it goes from bad to worse? Well today was that day. I thought I had plans but ended up alone all day...

 So today is my boyfriend's dad's birthday and I thought I was going to spend the day with his family like I normally do for birthdays so I freed my schedule. Turns out it bit me in the butt. Apparently they went to Alcatraz which is totally awesome, but I missed out. Little did I know that I could have been invited. I know my boyfriend really didn't know it was a group thing but wouldn't you at least ask if your girlfriend, knowing she was already supposed to hang out with the family, could go? I know his brain doesn't think like that.. Sometimes it comes in handy, but it really sucked today...

 I know I shouldn't be bummed out but for some reason I am. I don't know, it makes me feel as if his family doesn't like me so they didn't bother letting my boyfriend know that it was a group trip. Maybe they really just didn't want to be around me.. Heck, I really don't want to be around me, but I don't have a choice. I don't know. I'm just really bummed out and a tad disappointed. Again I know I shouldn't be, but I am.. :(